Climate anxiety and resilience 9/8/21

Today I woke up from a dream about making talisman to attract rain. A teardrop shaped charm that sat comfortably in the palm of my hand, shear, smooth, saturated with watery colors, and much applauded, while I knew very well it was totally useless and felt like a fraud in my dream. I woke up and smelled rain in the air, here in California, we are going through the driest summer, and we got a sudden short sharp pounding of rain in the middle of the night, in the middle of a time of year commonly referred to as Indian Summer. It is cloudy and humid, and unseasonable weather has been happening for years now.

At the same time I know we are going to have drier summers yet and water rations, and every time I use water, I am aware of my role in using up planetary resources, that are becoming scarce, and should be shared and used wisely.

We don’t have seasons anymore, we just have weather that just happens.

I know there is terrible draught in the entire continent of Africa, the Middle East, and south Asia, and the subcontinent of India, all have seen terrible suffering because of the climate crisis for years increasingly worse, which they are hit with so much harder than us. But the US emits the lion’s share of the Carbon emissions and affect the entire planet. 10 times over what the entire continent of Africa produces and nearly 4 times that of India. This is on top of the history of colonization and neoliberal political and economic coercions of the worlds big, messy, superpower that it is. So we need to change things here in the US to help make changes everywhere.